YAYYY

My tutee was an E8 combined physics/chem student.
He just took a photo of his results for me and he got 88/105.
HAHAHAHA doing some advertising on my teaching ~

It's been quite some time

Since I study past midnight.
Guess whenever I stay in school I always end up studying past midnight hahahaha.
Kind of nice to start feeling stress.
At least you know you still have some concern about education.
Quite shag though.
Tomorrow got two papers, (suddenly realised got two lol).
Then need to do my thai oral with Zanelle also.
That bugger (who sometimes read my blog) has FYP so I guessed we have to ask for extension.
School's kinda busyyyyyy.
Wew.

Wondering

You know sometimes I just wonder, what defines who we really are?
They say we are defined by our thoughts.
But you know sometimes thoughts can just be so different at different times of the day.
At times I feel like there's just so many thoughts and it's really crazy to see how the thoughts link and whirl around endlessly but yet we're just only able to catch glimpse of these thoughts.
It's like you don't know what you're really thinking about.
And then when it grows too heavily, they are all released by tears.
Then when the tears come out, you feel this sudden sense of calm and emptiness.
And you think to yourself, why did I think so much just now.
And it's like no matter how hard you try to think of what you thought, it just doesn't appear again.
That's when you ask yourself, so which then is the real you?
The one that don't think as much or the other?
I just don't know how to answer this question.
I guess it's kind of both.
Like what you said, if we don't have the balance of both, we might go crazy.

Was reading my book on the train ride to school this morning.
And it's interesting to think why humans are chasing happiness.
Since I've always said that it's our thoughts, memories and emotions that defines us, then why is it that we need to chase happiness if being sad or depressed is a form of emotion too.
Maybe humans are just scared of the latter.
Being sad is being us too.

Tripping like I'm not supposed to

I guess thoughts explode through the eyes

Too much words

I should stop reading words.
I think I read too much words today.
It's kind of tiring.
I'm going to sleep.
Good night world.

Poof

Mock Comp @ TP

Wew, mock comp was just terrible.
But it's okay because I knew what went wrong.
Not focused, not hydrated and totally not warmed up.
Hahahahaha..
Lucky I got one bonus, if not I think I'll feel quite bad.
But nevertheless it was okayyyyyyy.
Not like I trained hard for it or anything hahahaha.
RM next week, not sure how I'd be.
Hmmm.

Alcohol

Same chemicals, different effects. One a stronger reality, one a stronger pretence. Yet  the struggle is between letting her pretend, or to get my unspoken words out.

Trust

We all have a different face when we're with different people.

And I guess my face around you is the truest.

Maybe that's why I enjoy your company.

I feel myself.

Stressssssss

I don't know whether it's a good thing or bad thing that one of the mid terms is set tomorrow.
Like before recess week.
So damn fast.
And it's also one of the worst module ever.
Quantum mechanics 1.
I don't understand shit about it.
Good thing is that I can get it over and done with and stop caring about it.
Bad thing is I really don't understand anything about it.
Because the lecture is at 8am and the day before is training day.
So I'd probably have less than 6 hours of sleep (after training) and it really is tiring trying to stay awake in lecture.
So all the time I just give up and sleep in lecture.
I don't think it's a time to regret I guess.
Just gotta pick up from wherever I am now.
I'm 60% done with the tutorials and lectures.
I think.
But the paper is in a few hours time lol.
Okay la, not like it is finals.
Guess I gotta work harder for finals then.
I'm so tired.
Guess I'm gonna go crash soon.
The lounge is so empty.
Lol.
Like literally I'm the only one sitting at this side of the lounge.
Shall go find QL soon.

我始终相信

所有的相遇都有意义

Quality talks

I guess the reason why quality talks are so meaningful is because without meaningful talks, you can talk so much to this person without even understanding what's going on in their brain.
How can people survive on small talks for years?
I don't understand.

I really couldn't see it in you.
And it scares because I always thought I was observant.
It really is scary.
Yet again, it's the second day I know you.
Don't know how to feel about this.

Thanks Chin Yue for the short phone call.
It was nice to hear your story too *moon face*

Daily dosage of Psilocybin

Thanks and sorry again.
It seems like it's been happening more often recently.
But more of thanks for letting me confirm.
I wonder what the next session will be like and what topic would we be on.
But yet again, life's uncertain.
It's really really uncertain.
Like what I presented during GET1015.
Human fate is a trajectory waiting for us to be determined by dynamical variables.
Which I believe the variables are decisions and interactions.

越是有 越不夠

過那麼久 我終於懂
誰來誰去都是經過 哪有什麼錯

Listening ear

For the listening ear.