That feeling

of not knowing what to do everyday.
And feeling disconnected from the world.
I don't know what that feeling is.
All I know is, it's not something pleasant.
Don't even feel like going school tomorrow.
A levels faster over............................
If not I would have to face more scoldings every fucking day.

Hahaha

Can't wait to watch Ah Boys to Men with my brother.
The once far away army life seems to be coming to reality.
Kinda excited for this new life.
(That is not studying at least)

zz

Fucking dulan.
Keep dota then lose then tell myself win then go study.
Then cannot fucking win.
Then cannot fucking study.
Then fucking pek cek.

Brain.
Y U NO CLEVER ABIT?

zzz

不要什么事都管得那么多行吗？
开口闭口都在骂我。
我已经18岁了。
不是你眼中里的小孩子了。
难道你还不了解吗？
操

书

人们读书为了提升自己的价值。
我们读书为了社会。
那么“书”这个字根本没有意义了。
越读越觉得自己在浪费青春。
希望都死了。

Damn

This period of time is really frustrating and seemingly endless.
So everyday it's a little like

There's no purpose in waking up anymore.

PA CARNIVAL A.K.A CLIMB ON! 2012

This is PA CARNIVAL 2012.
Hahaha.
Wasn't there to climb but instead just to watch.
Omg it's been so long since I touch tiles.
But this carnival pulled me back to the climbing community.
Hahaha.
See all the familiar faces today.
So long never see Elaine, Valerie, Justin Lee and all the other climbers.
Today saw some of them.
Awesome.
It was really hot today though.
Hahaha.
Sorry forgot to mention that I was there with Justin Lim!
First date with a J1 guy.
LOL.
Yup so watched all the people climb.
So pysched.
Especially the 9998 points route.
But this event was really small as compared to Climb On.
That's the only disappointing thing I guess.
No more "ROCKING INTO THE NIGHT."
Hahaha.
Oh and I saw Jabrina and Yao Zhi also.
HAhaha.
Matthew was there too.
So after watching the event.
Which is around 4, Justin left first so left me alone.
Walk around.
Talk to Elaine.
Then find Matthew.
Then Wilfred came cause I called him to come.
Hahaha.
So me, Wilfred and Matthew studied at Elias Macs until around 7.
Hahaha.
Then went to eat 煮炒.
Hahaha abit guilty make him pay so much.
LOL cause I ordered too much.
Total $31 +.
Then I only pay $8 hahaha.
Okay then after that headed home and yup.
Damn shag.
1 MORE WEEK TO A LEVELS.
Can't wait for it to be over.
Lol.
Sian.

zzz

如果每天这样玩下去，
早晚会发疯。

dulanszxszxzs.

CCP STUDY!

Went to Changi City Point to study with Eugene today.
But Eugene was 2 hours late?
But I saw a lot of MJ people.
There was Ping Shuang, Sylvia and another squash guy.
Hahaha.
Then came Zi Jian.
He was supposed to study with Amos but Amos also haven't come so I ask him sit with me.
Then later Eugene came, Amos came.
Then study until like 7, Amos left.
So left the 3 of us.
Studied until like 9 then walked around CCP.
Got some haloween event at the roof top.
So went to see see and then after that headed towards expo.
Went Expo to look around.
Beds and books.
The two halls.
Hahahaha the bed's hall damn shiok.
Got those kind of bed with memory foam.
Awesome.
Hahaha so after that headed to Tampines 201.
Went to eat there with Destin and then headed home at around 11+.
Hahahaha.
That's about it~~~

怎么办

如果每天这样的话。。。
什么事都不会发生的。
真的是太没有勇气了。
那时的勇敢都跑到了哪里？
啊！
烦死了。

Garena Admins

I wonder what they do.
LOL.
Do they get paid for banning people.
If yes then alright I understand.
If no, then Q_Q?

那些年。。。

有时候，我真的觉得自己在浪费时间。
有时候，却觉得很空虚，需要人陪。
内心里的感受真的搞得我都不了解自己了。
有时候真的好想什么事都不管。
骗得了别人，可是骗得了自己吗？
心里的感受只有自己明白，可是暗中却希望有人能够理解。
真的是白痴。

Exactly my thoughts.

What I want to do 10 years down the road.

http://jessicahdrw.blogspot.sg/2012/09/they-say-travelling-makes-you-wiser.html

JC LIFE

This would be the topic I would blog about after A levels.
So excited to write it.
You know, the emotions for A level is really up and down.
Sometimes you feel quite confident.
And at times, you feel super panicky.
Wonder which side is good.
For now the only thing I'm scared of is GP and ECONS.
I guess the rest of the subjects I'm quite okay already.
Tomorrow is ECONS and GP day!
Hope I can make it productive.
Instead of dotaing the whole day.
Damn it.
Waste a lot of time.
Everyday play until like 3am.
Today was really dota day sia.
Hahaha.
But got cycle to compass to study la.
Studied at subway from 6.30 to 10?
Did the 2010 paper 1.
Got quite a good grade.
Hope it stays like this.
Hahaha.
Was watching this marriage proposal in the afternoon.
Wonder when and how it would be like.
And who would it be.
Hahahaha.
Okay.
Shall go sleep.
Set alarm at 11am.
Going to do 3 essay plans.
And maybe write the one about technology and crime.
Hahha.
OKAY GOOD NIGHT.
Gonna wake up at 11am.
8 hours of awesome sleep awaits.
Do your maths, and you will know what time I dota-ed until.

.

Can you all just stop scolding me when I just use my fucking bicycle.
Every fucking time.
Zzzz

FINALLY

Woke up in the morning.
Oh shit it's 12.01 already.
NEVERTHELESS.
IT'S MORNING.

Damn

this noob teammates.

CHOMP CHOMP

Hi all.
Yesterday was a not bad day.
Went to Nex at around 11.30.
It was raining.
Supposed to meet chin yue at 11am then he smsed me at 11.30 that the rain at his house there like tornado.
So WTF.
I went lan shop first.
Play 1 round of dota.
LOL DU LAN.
My teammates suck.
Then after that it was around 12.30.
Chin Yue haven't sms me.
So, went to arcade.
HOTD + Jubeat.
Then by the time it was around 1+.
Then Chin Yue just reached.
So went to macs to study.
Since we wanted to go chomps at night, I have to save money.
Already spent quite a lot on playing.
So left like $3 for lunch.
So bought hot milo and then study until we kena chased out.
At around 5+?
Lol then we went to carl's junior.
Without buying anything.
Study until 6+ then went chomps to eat.
Omg damn shiok.
Ate sting ray + kang kong + 2 plates of rice and sugar cane.
I was so damn hungry.
But the thing fucking spicy.
HAHAH.
Then eat until like want die.
I think I'm gonna lao sai soon.
Ok so after eating, went to walk around.
Like gays.
LOL.
Went myvillage to look around.
Then we keep walking around the area.
Found a macs there.
Super imba.
No one there one.
At around 8+ it's quite empty.
Like only 10 people inside.
Cfm can study hahaha.
Okay shall go do my things.

The stress for A levels is too damn high.
Until it's become numb.
:/

The very first thing on my newsfeed

Jia Hui Lee

one day, your life is going to flash before your eyes. just make sure it's worth watching.

And yup

it turned out pretty well today.
:)

Woke up at 12+?
Dota until like 3+
Then went to bathe.
Headed to 681 there to fix my punctured bike.
Oh god.
Finally can ride bike.
Shiok.
So cycled to Kovan to find Wilfred.
Yup studied there.
And he helped me.
Do something.
LOL.
Okay so XH came to find us too.
Talked awhile and then Valerie came from her tuition.
Valerie and Wilfred left at 7.20.
Talked to XH awhile and then he left at around 7.40 when the rain became smaller.
So studied there alone until 9.40.
That was the most productive 1 hour 30 minutes probably.
Hahaha.
But after that shag already.
Not a bad day.
Or rather a good day.
Hahahaha.
Can study in peace finally.

THANKS WILFRED.
YOUR TURN

Indecisiveness

Was on 109 yesterday morning.
Was kinda looking at all the people around me.
All of them were sleeping.
The working population.
If I'm gonna lead this kind of life in the future, I rather not live.
Work, sleep, wake up, work sleep.
Let's add some colours to life.

Omg

Wilfred just told me some things.
OH MAN.
If that's really true, there's really a lot of things to clear up.
Blah.
Today has been a super unproductive day.
7+ went school.
Econs consultation.
Until 9+?
Then went to library to borrow laptop and play tetris at T1-1.
PLAY UNTIL 3.
WTF.
Then after that went to eat buffet at Tamp with Destin, Yi Da and Eugene.
Lol damn full.
After that went to white sands.
Watched eugene cut hair and then went to macs to study until 11.
Omg.
This is very.
Gah.
I don't know how to explain how I'm feeling now.
Lol okay let's see what happens tomorrow.

Was looking through music

And realised those artists that have existed a long time ago have changed a lot.
Many have criticised the new songs.
And that they miss those old songs and wish these artists would produce songs that are similar to songs in the past.
For example, Jay Chou's song have changed so much.
Less emotional maybe?
Boa's song too.
It has became more mature as she grows older.
Some people say they miss the old BoA.
Saying the new songs are of no meaning.
But come on, she's 26 already.
We can't expect her to write about teenage love and troubles.
Even linkin park's songs.
From the Hybrid Theory I've been following since primary school.
Till the new album "Living Things".
Less screamo, more peace.

All these make me realise that people are constantly changing including you and me.
We all change from time to time.
Their characters can change alot in a short period of time.
And people will judge.
People who are not able to accept the changes, will leave you.
Those who are able to accept your changes, and still treat you the same, are your friends.

Cherish these people.

Somewhere I belong

I wanna feel like I'm close to something real.

Fuck this shit

Thanks for that pointless scolding.
Totally made my day.

I don't know why

But the dream last night is still in my mind.
Kept thinking about it.
I think I still can't let go deep inside.
No matter how hard I tried, it just won't go away.

Fool.

That dream

was probably one of the dream I would have 2 years ago.
Why is this kind of dream popping out again?
And then I realised it's been so long since we last talked.

AHHH SO STRESS

I think I really have to calm down.

If not I would go mad.

I keep thinking, what if I do badly for A levels.

I would feel sorry for not living up to my parent's expectations.

And I would be scared that I won't get any jobs in the future.

But the thought of climbing in the future instead of working was kinda shiok.

No worries about life.

Everyday so happy.

I seriously don't mind being a backpacker.

And when I realise how contradicting my thoughts are with this society, I will be like "Fuck this society."

Sigh.......................................................

Du lan life.

Hahahah.

I was so terrified

I AM FUCKING BACK HOME SAFELY.

I'm still shaking.
I was so scared.
But I tried to be brave the whole time.
That was one of the most terrifying situation ever.
I don't think what I am gonna describe is gonna be scary but I was really scared.
My whole body shaking from anxiety now.
Dang.

This might seem stupid but I was riding on my bike and I got lost.
Yes.
I fucking got lost with my bike.
I was studying at Hougang 1 just now.
Until 11.40 then I decided to go cycle around.
Wanted to let myself out.
Was listening to music and then I was so high.
Headbanging all the way.
Then decided to go AMK hub to look around.
So cycled there.
So it was 11.52 when I was going to come home.
I was cycling so damn fast while headbanging.
And then there was this 10 cm ledge on the ground that I was cycling.
And I was probably going at 30+km/h.
The bike went over the ledge and then BAM.
The bicycle became damn unsteady and then I stopped the bicycle.
To realise my back wheel punctured.

I have a spoilt bike with me.
I'm at AMK.
It was 12.10 midnight and the streets were damn empty.
I was around 6km from home.
Then it dawned on me that I'm fucking screwed.
If I reached home late, my parents would scold me.
But if they realised I'm late cause I went to amk at this hour, they will scold the FUCK out of me.
Worried by the thought, I decided to just chiong home with that punctured bike.
My whole bicycle was making very weird noise and it required more strength to cycle.
That wasn't a problem.
I was damn determined to get home.
And I keep telling myself that I will be fine.
Just keep cycling.
With music playing in my ear piece, I kept cycled and cycled.
I could feel my phone ringing.
My parents were calling.
I picked up after 2 miss calls and told them I'll be back soon.
And the worst thing happened to my life.
I realised I didn't make a turn just now.
And I kept cycling and cycling just now.
So, I was somewhere in AMK and I didn't know where.
It was probably 1 km away from AMK and I didn't want to cycle back cause it's upslope and my bike wouldn't be able to handle it.
I was already sweating mad by then.
I wanted to just teleport home somehow.
It was frustrating at the start.
But I was so damn scared.
Because the place I was lost was low on traffic.
And the streetlamps were lowly lit.
The sidewalk was so dark.
But I decided to just try my luck and cycle back home.
I used all my sense of direction to try to get myself out of the dark street.
Saw a bright, empty bus stop and cycled towards it.
The bus stop was like illuminating in the dark night.
And guess what, all the bus number was towards Yishun.
There was no fucking SBS bus.
I realised I was heading the wrong direction so I turned back.
Don't forget I'm cycling with a fucked up bike that is gonna die any moment.
And all my thoughts were "Bike, please last me till I go home. If not I'm fucked in this dark place."
I cycled back to a cross junction.
There was so damn few cars even though it was at the cross junction.
Like maybe 5 cars a minute?
So I use my sense of direction.
Since I knew where Yishun was, I kinda compassed myself to Hougang.
And with that rough gauge of where I was, I cycled down this road which I have decided on.
I was relieved for a moment to see Yio Chu Kang road.
There was another bus stop.
Walked towards it and realised there was bus 86.
It terminates at Serangoon interchange 11.8 km away.
3.8km to Jalan Kayu.
And I was like, once I reached Jalan Kayu I'm safe.
So I continued cycling down the road.
It was downhill.
And dark.
It was really dark throughout.
There were some overgrown grass that poked out from the sidewalk.
I was probably the only soul in that area.
The more I cycled downhill, the more worries I get.
What if I'm heading AWAY from home?
I kept thinking.
That will be fucking screwed up.
Because I would have to go back.
Uphill.
Uphill in the dark.
With a forest on your right.
That is not a very pleasant thought to have.
I was already shaking from the fear of being lost in somewhere I don't know.
I could probably just call my dad and fetch me.
But I already lied to them that I'm coming home soon.
So I kept telling myself that I must not let them know I was lost.
But I was really helpless at that moment.
Those thoughts were in my mind as I continued cycling down.
It was really quiet.
Only crickets and my back wheel flapping in beats.
Somehow it got colder and it was damn misty.
Cause of the forest on my left.
My own breath could fog up my spectacles.
I tried to calm myself down by singing.
But it didn't work as I'm the only voice in the completely silent road.
The journey seemed damn long.
I checked on the next bus stop.
After a right turn.
I was so scared there was no more 86 but luckily, there was 86.
And it showed 2.8 km more to Jalan kayu.
Then I realised 2.8km is fucking far with a punctured tyre.
I cycled 1km in 5 minutes?
That means I would have to feel scared for more that 15 minutes.
I looked down the road.
All I could see is more trees and more empty streets ahead.
I start to feel desperate.
And came the worst thing.
My bicycle stopped working.
I couldn't even pedal anymore.
My legs were so tired.
And the back wheel exploded.
The rubber inside the tyre came out and then twisted and twirled around the gears.
The whole bicycle was nothing but a burden now.
Without the bike I could run home in probably 20 minutes?
So I'm all alone.
Stuck in a dark sidewalk.
With no cars on the road.
Dimly litted street lamps.
And a fucking pitch black forest on my left.
(It was an army campsite)
Now what.
I kept thinking.
What the fuck now.
I pushed my bike down the road further.
There was a couple who was cycling down YCK road also.
They saw me and stared at me.
I was so glad to see human you know.
Holy fuck.
But they didn't help of course.
They couldn't if they wanted anyway.
So they just cycled down.
And I'm all alone again.
At that point of time, all I could do was swear and swear in my mind.
I need to do something.
I decided to push my bike down even more because I was scared to be alone there.
So I chased after the two couples with my foot and asked them some questions.
They told me to try to get a taxi on the main road.
So I did so and then in the end, I gave up and called home.
Tried to steady my voice before I talked.
Told my mum to come down to help pay for my taxi.
Saw this taxi drive down from where I came from.
I waved so damn frantically so that he would see me.
(Because before that some taxi driver didn't see me and just drove away)
He saw me and stopped his taxi.
And when I opened the door, it was an indian uncle that looked a little like Dr Vaz.
I knew he was going to say no when I asked whether he can pick up my bike.
But before he could, I looked at him and told him I really need to get the fuck home right now.
(Without the fuck of course)
He agreed but he didn't know how to put in my bike.
He didn't have comscord with him to tie the boot.
I was really determined to not let him drive away.
Because it was really like my only chance to go home.
So I suggested to put the bike at the back seats while I sat infront.
Surprisingly, the bike fit just nice and that was when I knew all this fear is finally over.
Holy fucking hell of an experience.

You all might think that it's stupid to be scared.
But try to put yourself in my shoes.
You might get a little idea of why I'm so scared.
It's like my childhood nightmare.
And my nightmare goes like:
no matter how I try to escape from a scary place, I'll still find myself stuck in the same place.
I guessed that's why I felt so scared.

Imagine this place at 12 midnight.
And imagine you can't even see the sidewalk properly.
That's how dark it was.
Ahh fuck this, shall go dota.

Time splitter 2

is really taking up a lot of time.
And fun of course.
LOL.
Today was the last day in school.
Everyone took photo with everyone.
Everyone looked happy.
For the first time.
The school was lively.
Without being forceful, everyone felt attached to the school.
It's just the moment when everyone realised, it's the last day of school.
Don't feel sad la.
Hahaha bo feel.
Okay la not really bo feel.
Maybe abit.
Then after farewell assembly, went to study at library level 2 with Michael only.
Then after that went Eugene's house time splitters with them PLUS Destin.
Hahaha.
Damn fun.
Play until like 11 then went to eat dinner.
Then last bus home.
Shiok life.
Like after A level sia.
Q_Q

lol

I never use facebook my mom thought I hiding something from her.

WTF.

lol

Yesterday was a damn fun day.

Went to Eugene's house and played time splitters with him and Michael.

LOL.

Then after that played tetris on nullpomino.

Damn fun.

Hahahaha.

But never study at all la.

Today went school for Mr Hon's tutorial.

Realised I don't know all the basics for econs.

That's why I got a freaking U.

Shall work hard for econs now.

Really hope I can get my 3A 1C.

If not damn sian.

Tsk.

I'm already damn sian actually.

Cause of what yu ling told me.

Blah.

Shall go study later on.

Gonna study at RM with yu ling.

ahaha.

K BYE.

First day without social network

Hahahaha.
It feels quite weird without checking notifications.
Let's see whether this will last until I delete facebook / twitter.
Hahaha.
Anyway, this morning, I was a bit late for car.
So I ran.
I was 1 minute minute late.
But there was no one under the block.
I thought wah, heng.
Not I late.
So I waited.
Then I realised it doesn't feel right.
I kinda concluded that they got no lessons.
Then if I go school I confirm late.
So in the end I just pon.
So went to Hougang Mall macs.
Walked there.
Omg feel damn good to walk in the streets at around 7.30.
Feel refreshing hahaha.
Once I reached hougang mall was sweating.
Then the macs never on air con.
So kinda settled down with my milo and then started doing work.
Tell you guys.
I studied from 7.30 to 3pm.
Only stop for lunch.
That was mad.
And I got around 80/100 after adding my paper 1 and paper 2 together.
Damn confident.
Hahahaha.
And the good thing was it was even timed.
Not do in 6 hours or something.
LOL I do the NYJC prelim paper 2 for 5 hours and I finally got all the answers.
100/100.
HAHAHA.
That was not today though.
The time from 7.30 to 3pm felt super productive.
It just gives me the independent feel.
Like I can do work myself.
Without distractions.
Then after 3pm, Vincent and Ivan came.
So slacked awhile more first.
Then studied a bit of chem.
Then went for dinner with them at around 6.30.
Saw Rui Nah and her boyfriend.
Yes she has a boyfriend.
OMG.
Awkward.
Okay moving on.
Went to eat wan ton mee.
Shiok.
Then went home with Vincent and Ivan.
Went to bathe and then went out to study again.
At 9pm.
This time with Kenny.
Studied my econs which I want to change from a U to a C.
Really hope can get at least a C.
Shall put in more effort.
Yup, so just came back home.
GONNA DOTA!
Reward for studying more than 10 hours.

Alright

I've just deleted whatsapp too.
Hahaha.
Let's see what changes are there in life!

Great talk

I will be off from facebook and twitter for a long time.
Was talking to Kelvin and Jun Wen at Compass just now.
Finally a dinner/ talk together.
Hahahaha really great catch up.
That few hours talk, brought me back to reality.
Feel like I'm alive and kicking again.
Or rather, make me realised that I have been so dead for the past few months.
It's been so long since I had such emotional talks with friends.
Talk until got tears sia.
Hahahaha.
And Kelvin told me about going off from social network for a month.
He say it's really good.
I've always wanted to do that but haven't find the reason to.
Now Kelvin has just told me it's good in a way, so GOODBYE FACEBOOK AND TWITTER.
Hahahaha.
So happy for the two of them.
It was really a good talk.
Kinda makes me realised that all of us are growing up.
18 already.
Tsk tsk.
5 years down the road.
Will we still be talking?
It's kinda scary to think that the people around you will become strangers in 5 years time.
Scary scary.
Anyway, if you wanna contact me.
My phone will still be here, my msn will still be on.
angweepin@hotmail.com
Can add me.
Or just call me out for dinner.
I will be free.

MIN JIAN'S HOUSE

Short post.
Went mj house to "study"
End up helping him to clear the plant at his rooftop.
LOL.
We freaking climb up.
With a ladder.
Then stand at the edge of the building.
Those kind where someone open the window I will drop face flat on the ceramic tiles.
Hahahah.
Show you.

The view up here is really, somehow special.
Especially when you are standing at the edge of a building.



I took my phone and took a photo upwards.
Didn't really take with my eyes open.
Just anyhow press.
Hahaha.




HAHAHA It wasn't THIS SCARY.
But I was just exaggerating by stepping outside abit.
LOL.


LOL.
Supposed to be studying la.
Then go help them in the end.
But was damn fun.
Hahhaha.
Okay so after fixing the stuffs.
Went to his house the "Garden" to talk with Siying, Ke xin, Min Jian and Yong Sheng.
So talk talk talk.
Then Si Ying left first to visit her father in the hospital.
Then the rest of us went to eat at lavarock.
Near Branzann's house there.
So after eating then cycled home.
Hahaha
That's about it.
SCHOOL TOMORROW.
FUCK.

I don't understand

why my dad always so annoyed by my actions.
Somehow it seems like everything I do is against his expectations for me.
Just come home from climbing and I only used computer awhile.
He asks me go bathe and then study.
I'm fucking 18 years old already yet he treats me like a kid that don't know what I want for myself.
I said I going soccer tomorrow morning and he "TSK" damn loud.
It's like he thinks I'm not worried enough for my own future.
But in fact, I am fucking worried.
Okay, maybe I'm not worried for my future.
I'm just worried about my results.
Because I already know what I'm going to do in the future.
THAT IS NOT LINKED WITH MY FUCKING RESULTS.
That's why I don't really give a fuck about A levels.
I'm just living under their expectations.
All my worries that I won't do well for A levels are for them.
I really don't mind living a shitty life in the future.
As long as I'm happy.
But right now, it doesn't seem that I'm happy with life.

Doesn't make sense.

Wow

Just broke 400k views on my blog.
Hahahahaha.
Thanks for the support people.

Today has been a great day.
Great in the way because I don't talk about productivity today.
CAUSE I DIDN'T STUDY WOOO.
Took 43 to Katong Shopping Centre today.
Met Eugene first and then walked in together to find Michael and Yi Da at the pool there.
They pei-ed me eat first.
Ate chicken rice.
FREAKING IMBA CHICKEN RICE AT KSC B1.
(Y)
So played pool in the morning.
Destin came shortly and then we went to eat after playing.
I never eat, watch them eat.
So after that went to lan.
Played CS.
Team with Destin and Eugene.
Hahahaha.
Damn fun.
So after playing went to teo heng.
Sang from 4 - 8.
Sing until no voice hahaha.
Even though I never sing much.
Just keep shouting and jumping around with the guys.
Hahaha.
Damn fun.
There was me, Yi Da, Michael, Eugene, Wilfred, Joaquin, Edwin, Destin, Joshua and Vivek.
Hahaha not bad a class outing.
Ended the singing session with 那些年。
Sian.
Always hear this song will damn sad.
Especially the "  我就是幼稚才会追你追悼怎么就。"
Tsk tsk.
So after singing, went to eat at Old Airport Road.
Hahaha.
Since it's a thursday, I knew YS was climbing at onsight.
So gave him a call and he just ended.
So waited for him.
My class guys went off first before Yong Sheng came.
So went home with him afterwards.
TOMORROW GOT SCHOOL.
Shall go sleep soon.
Damn shag.
Hahahaha.




It's really bothering me to not know what is bothering me.
Or maybe I do know

I'm so scared

I just got this very bad feeling I will screw up my As and do shit in the future.
What if, let's say what if my passion for climbing disappears sometime.
Wtf would happen to my life.
I'm screwed.
But I always feel that no matter whether my passion changes or not in the future, I must stick to my principles in life.
So no matter what happens, I'm still working towards my life goal.
Thinking like this, it sometimes calms me down.
But I'm pretty much screwed.

Poetic Justice

Omg for the first time I feel like watching channel 8's drama.

I was searching the theme song.

And I came across this comment on one of the songs.

這首歌讓身為同性戀的我聽得好酸好酸 ,,

我們都害怕大眾尖銳的眼光

也許是上輩子犯下了什麼過錯

這輩子我們才做了同性戀 在還上輩子的債

我們總是孤單 總是不夠勇敢 愛得如此茫然

不曉得能夠為了誰留一張底牌

每次愛 每次受傷 不只是失戀而已

還會招來閒言閒語 使我們越裹足不前

我們是多麼希望能夠肆無忌憚地去愛 ..

There's still a lot of things in life for me to discover and learn.

I'm 18 but I still feel ignorant.

Fucking sian

I can't climb any shit.

Fucked up left leg.

Fucked up body.

Where's everything gone to.

It's the first time I leave the gym so early.

And alone some more.

Really felt damn bad about my performance.

Wtf my dad gone mad.

He almost beat rhino cause she keep going under the sofa.

wtf.

k whatever.

Tired

Not going to write much but.............
WEI LUN BOUGHT NEW CUBE FOR ME.
Omg it's damn colourful.
Haha.

Okay then after school went to study with Ivan Kenny and Vincent at Hougang 1.
That's about it.
GOOD NIGHT.
Damn lazy hahahaha.
Need pack climbing stuffs~

I miss you guys~

Dayum.

Dota

is screwing me up.
I didn't study much at all.
Only finished what I haven't finish for NYJC prelim paper.
I'm screwed omg.
Shall do nyjc prelim paper 2 tomorrow.
Revise on the weak chapters of physics.
Do 1 econs essay.
Okay I hope I really do that.