I think it's a tough decision

But I'm going to stop climbing for a week.
Non-climbers be like lameeeeeeeee 1 week only.
Climbers be like "wah why sia?"

But oh well.
Have too many injuries recently.
I'm afraid it's sign of aging.
Slow recovery.
Lol.
Really quite demoralise with my own climbs these few days.
Past 3 sessions was quite shit.
But I tend to blame it on my injury.
Want to get stronger but the injury is hindering.
But if I don't climb I drop very fast.
So if you think 1 week is short, it's actually quite long for me.
Like forget how to climb like that.
Hahaha.
But yup, need to heal my left shoulder, right wrist, right ring finger tendon and my right knee.
Oh and my right hips.

I hope that this 1 week going to be a good recovery week.
Not just recovery on my body.
Also my school work.
Need to recover that shit.
Hahaha.
But to be honest, I really hope this week will recover my body.
It sucks to not be able to climb at your hardest.
It's worst than not catching a tile.
It's like not giving in the 100%.
If I know I give in my 100% and I can't do the move, fine, I admit I'm weak.
But it's like THEREE, and your hand it's like ALMOST THERE.
That feeling.
Argh.

Recovery regime from 31/10/2015 - 7/11/2015.
Let's do this shit.
Fall down and get back up.
Stronger.
Weeeeeeeeeee.

O levels

On the train now with some secondary school kids.
Talking about o levels and going home together and stuff.
Kind of eavesdropping their conversation and it's really quite cute.
Hahaha kids as in guys and girls.
Kind of miss the times back in xinmin.
Everyone seemed less busy and happy with one another.

Good morning

It's 2:31 PM now and I've just woke up.
Feeling awesome because it's been really long since I woke up without alarm.
So yeah, going to Hougang Macs to study right now!
Gonna chiong all my shit all the way until midnight I feel.
Hopefully it'll be productive.
Actually not hopefully, because it must be done by tomorrow.
Hahahaha.
So yeah, woke up feeling refreshing, it's awesome.

Yesterday was a long day.
Went to climb with Yong Sheng, Joshua Tan, Kee Hang and Jeannette.
Then after that headed to Botanic Gardens to chill with the team.
TEAM BONDING.
Hahaha it was quite fun la.
Card games, frisbee, nice food (Pot luck)
Because it was pot luck, got a lot of junk food here and there HAHAHA.
Yeah then Edmond threw frisbee into the pond.
Then everyone trying to get it out.
Use float ah use simi sai.
Go around looking for long poles.
But nope, Janice Chua decided to let her frisbee die in the pond.
Since it was too late already.
So we left.
Ferran sent me thomas moses and ange to bishan.
Then I headed home with Moses.
AND THEN DOTA.
All the way until 1+
Then went to meet Kenny and Vincent for supper.
And yup sleep.

Even tho I wake up so late I still feel damn tired.
LOL.
Alright enough procrastination for the week.
Time to squeeze everything in by today.
Bye guys.

人理所当然的忘记

Just caught 我的少女时代 with Joshua Tan.

Awesome show.

Made me think of my past and I reflected.

Thought of how simple things were back then.

And I thought of how forced my emotions are recently.

It's really not easy to be truly happy.

And it sucks to think that "to be truly happy" gets more difficult as we grow older.

But I guess it's not true.

It's more of perception.

How happy you are depends on how you perceive it.

I guess it's all the expectations we hold on to ourselves that cause happiness to seem further than it really is.

Let's just take an example.

5 years ago, when you were in secondary school, things were much more simpler and everything seemed to be happy.

Days like playing soccer with friends, studying with friends, going out with friends.

All these simple things make us happy.

That's because we choose to make things simple.

Enjoying everything because we don't have that ability to judge people properly yet.

But as we grow older, we're more afraid of being judged.

And because of that, we turn to ourselves.

And we stopped believing people as easily as we used to back in the past.

And I guess that's why old friends always seemed closer to you than new friends.

Because they are the simple friends that you've made back then when you were "less judgemental"

I guess it's really all part of growing up.

And it's like a survival of the fittest.

Everyone wants something out of somebody.

But end up forgetting how to feel truly for this person.

Hmmmmmmmm.

Just some random thoughts when I compared my life back in secondary school and now.

Things are so different right now.

Oh well.

I guess we need to start feeling for people.

And not taking people around you for granted.

I KENNUT

I do sincerely have to conclude that technology is bad.

It's really a bad medium to communicate.

I was waiting for the bus home yesterday at Serangoon and I saw two girls using their phone.

Not saying I want to read their whatsapp chat but yeah, my eyes just happened to roll there.

They were giving all the smiley faces.

But their face was stoned.

Then another one typed "HAHAHAHA".

Then her face was also stoned.

So it brings me to a question.

Doesnt it mean that the improvement in technology for communications had somehow deproved communications itself?

Such irony right.

I have a theory that if we plot a graph of technology against happiness, it would be a bell shaped curve.

Meaning it has an optimum point.

And anymore will cause it to backfire.

To explain myself a little more, it's more of like over-reliance.

Causing us humans to lose all the natural instincts about life.

The true enjoyment behind it.

And the natural process of life.

It somehow hinders it I feel.

Just one of my thoughts.

Should I

Try?
The past had been scary.
The history was clear.
The road is uncertain.

Bad day

Bad climbing day~
Was so psyched to climb but body wasn't ready for it.
Felt so tired and mentally drained after flash pump.
Can't wait for tendons to fully recover and start cranking hard again.
To add on, still got shit to do when i get back home.
Sighhhhh.
And Thursday won't be a climbing day?
Why so negativeeeeeeeeee.
Fuck.
Hope things get better.
Fuck hope.
Let's make things better.