My life in JC has come to an end a month ago.
To be honest, I'm kinda missing the people there.
But no, I seriously don't want to go through that kind of life ever again.
I'm going to go through really in detail what has happened in 2012.
Most of the things I'm going to say will be my life as a JC2.
Going to JC, the most significant thing that have changed a lot is the way I communicate.
I'm careful of what I say.
Because people here can't take jokes as much as people from XMS.
People here judge.
I've turned into someone who cares about dignity.
Yeah shit hole.
I care about how people view me as a person.
That's why I tone down.
That's why I become less guai lan.
And that's why I become less funny.
Because I know if I say a joke which is not funny, everyone will be like "fag".
I don't even dare to joke.
But this year, I really wanted to change.
I want to stop all this crap.
I want to be myself.
But no, there's no opportunity at all.
The only small chance that I can be myself is when I'm with the 11S103 guys.
But still, there's this barrier I have with everyone in this school.
I can't open up.
Which is the reason why I'm becoming weirder and weirder each day.
Too many things in my head.
This was a blog post I made in 30 January.
I remembered the only way I survived in the first few months of school was climbing.
I really can't stand school and every time on tuesday / thursday , I will look at the time and really hope the time passes quicker.
On a happier note, Orientation 2012 was fun.
Got to be A2's OGL together with Celestine and Deon.
It was..... KINDA WEIRD MIX.
And some more the people in A2 are very different from us.
Or at least very different from me.
But well, it was quite okay in the end.
Really appreciate how my OGMs appreciate me as their leader.
Especially Pauline.
Hahaha.
So after orientation, things start to get a bit quicker.
School really sucked that bad.
Can't carry myself to every lecture / tutorial.
Always going to the toilet and canteen to buy food during lecture.
Cause what I felt that time was "Why the fuck am I studying all this shit when I can lead a happier life outside?"
And that's probably the cause for everyday's gloominess in school.
Hahahaha, these are bees.
I think our ceiling lights look like honey combs to them.
AND THIS KINDA HAPPENED....
They're all hanging on each other.
Like wtf.
Since school was so boring everyday, things like this really make me go from -.- to o.o
There was this awesome period of time where I would keep cycling out of school with Eugene to buy macs from Elias Mall.
That was really something I looked forward to every day.
UNTIL SOMEONE STOLE MY BIKE.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Oh and either that, we will spend our breaks at 7 11 across the road.
That was fun too.
Until we get caught by the Vice Principal, saying that it's so dangerous to cross the road and stuff.
Like WTF, seriously?
Okay shall posts more picture of 2012.
ERRRRRRRRRR.
This is kinda what 11S103 boys would do after school.
We were trying to clean up the whiteboard and....
Well I guessed the class looked cleaner now?
Don't worry, we really cleaned it up afterwards.
We aren't that insensible.
It was really that bored in lecture so.. DREW.
Really into drawing stuffs that time.
Cause it's so boring.
YI REN'S BIRTHDAY.
When all the guys are still around.
This was probably the only time when all the guys were together.
WITHOUT ANY GIRLS.
Even sleeping at climb asia was better than being in school.
Oh and it was Wilfred's birthday.
Audrey pasted a lot of photos around school.
LOL, I crushed it and it became like this.
COLOSSEUM.
Trying out the glitter which is super disgusting.
Atlas Cheerleading
Hahaha the colosseum period was really awesome.
Spent time with my 9th Atlas House Comm and stressing out on what to do.
TOGETHER WITH STUDIES.
That was probably why I screwed up mid years.
And of course my laziness.
But I think it was really worth the time.
But you know, CHEER LEADING.
The bondedness just dies off in a month or so.
Just like our old batch.
So sad man.
Hahaha.
But yeah, got to get close to a few juniors like Jin An, Chawit, Shaon.
OH and not forgetting that's how the 9AHC got close to Matthew.
Hahaha.
AND YUP, NOTHING MUCH JUST DOTA EVERY NIGHT.
What's new?
After school going to the gym and meeting up with climbing friends.
Really take my mind off schoolwork.
And it'll probably come back when I'm at home.
THIS THE REASON WHY I NEVER DO TUTORIALS AND GET SCOLDED EVERYDAY BY TEACHERS.
Josh's birthday at Michael's house.
Small celebration haha.
Wow.
This ant's nest brought a lot of memories.
There was this period of time when Joshua was a pyromanaic.
Yes, we hid lighter fluid, deodorant and lighter in our class.
OUR CLASS IS REALLY FULL OF THINGS.
And yeah, we kinda burned down the ant's nest.
It's just outside the school.
LOL.
Really damn naughty, cannot stand it.
DRAWING AGAIN.
But got caught by Mr Nah.
Wtf, damn pek cek.
I spent super long drawing her.
It's Ashima btw.
I KNOW IT SUCKS.
Playing with fireeeeee.
IN CLASS.
Playing with LT5's projector.
And that's nicholas in the background hahahaha.
CHUN LI
This happens when being naughty in school wasn't enough.
AND YES, we all got busted by the staffs for running around in the masks.
HAHAHAHA.
Fucking joke.
And there was my most awesome birthday.
THANKS WILFRED AGAIN.
I'm really loving my bike :)
Meet up very soon.
My awesome birthday gift.
Freak, looking at this picture just reminded me that I asked a girl for number.
CAUSE I was supposed to be all "high" and get number from her.
But well, she wasn't in school.
So I asked for her number 6 days later.
AND I GOT IT.
But it's really nothing.
Seriously.
Just wanted to make friends but I guess in the wrong way?
HAHAHA.
That's what hanging out with 11S103 guys make me become.
Well at least when I play "I have never...." the game in the future, when someone says I have never ask for a girl's number, I could put down one finger.
LOL, okay jokes aside, was really quite upset about the RUMOURS I heard.
And really disappointed with my awkwardness.
Like fuck this, I'm such a faggot.
Don't even dare to do something.
Sad.
And yeah, Ivan, Kenny, Vincent, Chelsea, Salin and Ying Ting came over to my house to celebrate my birthday (SECOND ROUND)
BALANCE.
Erm, I think it was the last official day in school.
Grad day.
HAHAHA.
See Doctor Vaz at the background.
Doctor Vaz is really a nice teacher :)
A FEW WEEKS BEFORE A LEVELS.
Was studying and then fell asleep and..........
Hahaha.
Pictures aside, I could have said I really enjoyed and hated my life in JC.
Enjoyed all the stupid times spent together with my 11S103 guys.
It was really crazy.
It really made me feel like I'm in a fucking JUNIOR COLLEGE.
Where shit happens.
Comparing my life with all the other people in school.
I can say my life is top 5% in the cohort.
Results wise maybe bottom 5% LOL.
Nah just kidding, I'm not so dumb.
Maybe Abang will be below.
HAHAHA.
Changing clique in the start of 2012 wasn't something that happened in a day.
I was with Wilfred, Celestine, Audrey, Chai, Li Ying and Destin's group.
I don't know why but I kinda drifted from them.
Celestine wrote me a letter during my birthday and what she said kinda affected me.
She didn't write anything BIG but it really made me reflect on what kind of a person I am.
The sense of guilt.
Kinda.
Joining the 11S103 guys clique made me really crazy.
Doing things I haven't done before.
If I wasn't in the 11S103 clique, I will be so shameful to have these people as my classmates.
But when I'm inside, no, it's really different.
I swear everyone in school HATES us.
The teachers especially.
We met the Vice Principal and Principal countless times for discipline problems.
Like they're our friends already.
Then teachers scold us almost everyday, cause we don't do tutorials everyday.
Until they gave up.
And they kinda like just teach those people in the front two rows.
I guessed that work, because we started to panic about A levels.
All the funny laughing shit suddenly stops and everyone started studying real hard.
And in the end, I must say I really did my best for A levels and I also kinda enjoyed my life inside if not for the studying part.
And if I were to ask myself again, whether choosing JC was the right choice, I would say yes.
The attitude that I've put in for the last few months before A level really taught me things.
When it's time to be serious, be serious.
That's something I would take away from JC life.
And I really want to thank those people who have been my listening years.
It's kinda gay but lastly, I really want to thanks WILFRED for always being there for me, always reading my blog, always sharing things with me and always letting me share things with you.
This 2012 would be very different without you.
I would have no one to talk to about STARER.
HAHAHA.
Hahaha, this post was supposed to be emotional.
Like REALLY emotional.
But I guessed five and a half hour of sleep isn't enough for me to write a good post.
And yup, that marks the end of my post.
Need to go exercise with John!
Before he goes back to Phillipines :(
Yup, that's about it.
Happy new year everyone!
