Feel so weak

11 days of not climbing sucked.
Become so WEAK.
Can't pinch shit.
So sian sia.
But I found myself a project that I'm really going to do for sure.
It's a project that I'm GOING TO FINISH.
FOR SURE.
Well, it's not a very hard route.
But I just can't do it.
Zhi Wen finished already.
:(
Nvm.
What I learnt today is:
You don't have to find projects, but instead, projects will just come to you.
Like don't have to purposely define a very hard route as a project.
The project will be defined by itself when you feel so COMMITTED to finish but you just can't do it.
Damn sian.
But yes, finally a project hahaha.
I got a feeling I will finish this project very quick.
Less than 3 weeks I think.
Cause it's a short route.
If it's long, I definitely need damn long.
Hahaha.
Maybe Aizat's route.
ANYWAY FORGOT TO POST YTD.
But ytd was awesome.
Paper finished, went to swim with 103 guys.
Hahaha damn fun.
Then after swimming saw Sherine!
Damn long never see her.
Yup so went to eat dinner.
Then after dinner went to RED HOUSE.
Hahaha.
At first there were me, Joshua, Edwin, Eugene, Destin, Michael and Yi Da.
Lol at first supposed to all go in.
Then in the end only me and Eugene went in.
The barbed wire was part of the reason la.
The other reason is cause they scared.
Yup, so went in and there wasn't anything la.
It was still spooky though.
But the thing is we couldn't go into the house.
Because it's locked.
So we just walked around it.
Every place sealed.
So that explains why it wasn't that scary.
Hahaha.
Eugene say next time go OCH.
Wooo.
That one sure got kick.
Alright shall go bathe.
Headache~

Lol

Totally just gave up on tomorrow's paper.

Damn sian.

Not over you

If you ask me, 

how I'm doing, 

I will say I'm doing just fine.

I will lie and say you're not my mind.

Supposed to be studying BUT...

Look at Colosseum 2010 photos.
Cause I just added Clarence as friend.
Hahaha.
The XMS Clarence.
My senior (he retain)
So was looking at 2010 colosseum photos.
Like damn weird.
See all the seniors J1.
So I was looking through, see Royal, Faridzuan, all the 1993 people as a J1.
Then got even one "Tan Wei Yeat likes this"
I don't know how say but it's damn weird.
EVEN SEE MARCUS YEO IN THE ALBUM.
Marcus Yeo in Atlas shirt.
WTH.
Like yeah, the god of climbing was born from my school.
Hahaha.
If any of you are interested, here it is!
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.397726818357.171278.545418357&type=3

Maths paper!

Maths paper was shitty la.
But I feel quite proud of myself.
Given the state that I didn't study much.
Hope can pass.
I lost 52 marks already.
But the 48 marks quite confident.
HOPE CAN.
Hahaha.
Anyway, studied physics today with Eugene again.
Spent first half of the "post maths paper period" slacking at White Sands Library with Yi Da, Eugene and Josh.
Then after that Josh left first.
Then left the three of us.
Then we walked around white sands.
Like shopping.
Damn waste time.
Then went Comics connection and bought a rubik's cube.
Hahahaha.
Miss playing rubik's cube.
Wooo.
Going to play in school whole day already.
Like last time in 203.
Hahaha.
Okay then after that went to study with Eugene everywhere.
Went Kopitiam first.
Study 3 - 4 hours there.
Then too cold, headed to Pasir Ris sports complex to study.
For around ~1 hour.
Then headed to Macs there to study.
Then went home.
Took the last bus home.
Freaking tired already.
Shall go to school early tomorrow again.
Still got around 4 chapters!
Allez.
CAN'T FREAKING WAIT TO CLIMB ON SATURDAY.
BOOOOO.

Hahaha

Tomorrow's maths paper and I kinda studied for it pretty well.
Planning of passing it actually.
But somehow I know I won't pass.
LOL.
Sigh.
Got study doesn't mean study hard enough.
Today studied with Eugene and Michael after lunch after Econs paper.
Wanted to go back school to study alone, but again, I've made the decision to study with them.
Which I know I will feel guilty for just having fun and not studying again.
But today was different.
We went to Library to study.
The white sands one.
Managed to study!
WTH?
LOL.
Like me and Michael ask Eugene take a break go walk around see girls first.
Then he say wait.
Like wow.
And yeah, talked to Eugene a lot today.
Like for the whole freaking day.
Know much more about him.
All his deepest secrets.
And all my deepest secrets I told him also.
Like some secrets I never even tell my secondary school friends.
Or rather, those secrets abit out of context for my secondary school friends.
Hahahaha.
It was cool la.
He told me about his friend in Laselle.
His best friend actually.
That friend of his has been through thick and thin together with him.
Kinda like watch him how he screwed up his life, and like no matter what he will not like discriminate him or judge him for who he is.
I guess I used to have a friend like this.
It reminds me of you.
I don't think you probably know I'm talking about you but yes, YOU.
You used to be my best friend.
Remember how I used to tell you ALL my problems.
How we comfort each other every time something goes wrong.
How we talk about life.
Not putting the blame to any of us who never try to catch up, but more like a feeling of nostalgia.
The feeling that someone is there for you no matter what.
I really miss that feeling.
Sigh.
I should go and sleep and do maths tomorrow.
Ciaoxsz.

???

Why is it that I feel like crying for no reason?

Like there's just something deep down me that is very very unsatisfied with life.

Like there's something that I can change.

But what.