Been awhile

Since I smiled at my own thoughts.
It's kinda nice

I'm late for class in the end

Sigh, guess it's a grumpy morning.

Forsee

A very bad morning to deal with tml.
Good night.

I realised

I'm quite hard to please as a person.

You know

The weird feeling when sometimes you say some words which you normally wouldn't say.
Or like words from your mouth just seemed to be like from a different person.
Makes you ponder about how different you've become.
But what's weirder is how you're still able to judge that there's something different now than from the past.
So are we who we speak or are we who we think?
I guess it's an integration of both.

But you know people who don't read this blog have never seen the other side of me.
I wonder what's their impression of me as a person then.
Thinking about that, I'm glad I only have a few important friends that I've to take care of.
And most of the times I don't really bother about what other people really think of me.
But those who I care about, what they think bothers me a lot.
I'm afraid that people start to distant themselves away from me as I've seemingly changed as a person in thoughts.
But yet again, what rights do I have for distancing from my own friends.

Idk.
Some days are harder to get through than others.
But I guess we'll still get through.
And learn something out of everyday.
(And back to the idea of saying something that I won't usually say. That weird self-judgmental feeling)
Good night.

Sometimes

it feels like people like us are connected even before we know it.
Feels like we're all in a different dimension from this physical world they know.
Like a dream world.
It's just a matter of time where we'll meet more people like us.
It's nice sometimes though, because we're living in this dimension that normal societal things don't really act on us.
And that we have our own rules and way of living that they won't understand.
But yet, our physical self is in this physical world.
And when their world seeps into ours, chaos happens.

Thanks Ivan

Felt like it has been years since I've talked to you like that.
It was nice being able to be your listening ear and listening to your problems.
Like what you said, it distracts away from my own issues.
Thanks for being a decade year old friend.
I'm sorry I've rejected you for drinks or supper etc.
I'm just tired to socialise sometimes.
But today it felt really good just sitting downstairs your house and talking like how we used to last time.
You made me realised physically that it's true that other people have their own problems.
And that everyone has their own priorities in life that's why friends start to meet less.
But that doesn't mean they don't care.
I'm glad you talked to me and even though we didn't really say anything much about our problems, at least we shared similar things that we can relate to.
Things like opening up to someone and expecting them to open up to you.
And like how it's not right to expect that.
Though I didn't say anything much, it was nice just to be listening to you.

"Don't lose yourself" was probably the most triggering words.
I guess I'm still me.
Just a little different, but it's still me.

Thanks~~~~~