I've been blogging too much recently.
But anyway, tomorrow is GP paper.
All the preparation the past week better help me.
Well, it's not a very good preparation but it's still preparation.
And then hope that the week faster end and A level to faster gtfo of my life.
It's tiring.
Exhausting.
Hope things go well for the next 3 weeks.
Good luck to everyone reading this!
We're all in this shit together.
No worry.
Screw this up, don't worry, you still have a future.
Don't be confined by what others deemed to be a future.
Make your future as different from those "others".
Sunday, November 4, 2012
The Way I Am
But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire to burn and it's burning and I have returned
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Days like this
make me feel like walking out of the house.
Obviously I know I have an exam.
And I'm mature enough to decide whether I want to study or not.
It's also not you having the exam.
Why are you always so worried.
If I'm telling you I'm ready, then fucking trust me.
It's sick to study on and on.
And study for the sake of putting on a show.
Really, you should put yourself in my shoes.
How much stress I'm facing when exams are nearing and nearing.
And there you are shouting at me.
What if I screw up this time?
Cause of that mental barrier you gave me.
Then who are we to blame?
So just let me do my own stuffs.
I'm fucking pissed.
Yes.
I am.
This has always been happening.
Always.
Ever since I became a teenager.
Irrational scoldings, accusations.
And in the end, it always makes me feel so bad.
As if I'm the unfilial one.
I'm the one causing all the unhappiness in the family.
I'm already guilty enough.
So stop making me more.
It's a vicious cycle.
Between guilt and anger.
Just stop.
I really need a break.
It's A levels the day after tomorrow.
Please let me have my examinations in peace.
And I will give you the results you want.
And prove to you that I am ready now.
I haven't disappoint you with my results.
Ever since primary 6.
And I never will.
Trust me on that.
Obviously I know I have an exam.
And I'm mature enough to decide whether I want to study or not.
It's also not you having the exam.
Why are you always so worried.
If I'm telling you I'm ready, then fucking trust me.
It's sick to study on and on.
And study for the sake of putting on a show.
Really, you should put yourself in my shoes.
How much stress I'm facing when exams are nearing and nearing.
And there you are shouting at me.
What if I screw up this time?
Cause of that mental barrier you gave me.
Then who are we to blame?
So just let me do my own stuffs.
I'm fucking pissed.
Yes.
I am.
This has always been happening.
Always.
Ever since I became a teenager.
Irrational scoldings, accusations.
And in the end, it always makes me feel so bad.
As if I'm the unfilial one.
I'm the one causing all the unhappiness in the family.
I'm already guilty enough.
So stop making me more.
It's a vicious cycle.
Between guilt and anger.
Just stop.
I really need a break.
It's A levels the day after tomorrow.
Please let me have my examinations in peace.
And I will give you the results you want.
And prove to you that I am ready now.
I haven't disappoint you with my results.
Ever since primary 6.
And I never will.
Trust me on that.
Weeee
Went to school today.
For econs tutorial / consultation.
Market failure.
There was only me Eugene and Michael.
So after the tutorial / consultation, went to 2nd floor study bench to study.
Yup so study and study.
Then Michael left.
So left me and Eugene.
So lepak around.
Study GP.
Went to eat lunch with Amos and Zi Jian and Eugene.
Then talk abit then went to climb with Spencer and friends.
Then went back studying.
THEN EAT DINNER WITH EUGENE AT SUBWAY.
Then headed home.
Saw Pei Yi on 109.
Koh Pei Yi.
Hahaha.
My Odac junior.
Her O' level this year.
Kinda caught up.
It's cool to talk to a secondary school student.
Like, it's so real and stuffs.
No fake shit.
Until you grow older.
Sigh.
For econs tutorial / consultation.
Market failure.
There was only me Eugene and Michael.
So after the tutorial / consultation, went to 2nd floor study bench to study.
Yup so study and study.
Then Michael left.
So left me and Eugene.
So lepak around.
Study GP.
Went to eat lunch with Amos and Zi Jian and Eugene.
Then talk abit then went to climb with Spencer and friends.
Then went back studying.
THEN EAT DINNER WITH EUGENE AT SUBWAY.
Then headed home.
Saw Pei Yi on 109.
Koh Pei Yi.
Hahaha.
My Odac junior.
Her O' level this year.
Kinda caught up.
It's cool to talk to a secondary school student.
Like, it's so real and stuffs.
No fake shit.
Until you grow older.
Sigh.
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